How I Lost You by Jenny Blackhurst

How I Lost You by Jenny Blackhurst
My rating: 4 of 5 stars

Susan Webster has spent the last few years of her life in the Oakdale Psychiatric Institute ever since being charged with killing her three month old son, Dylan. Susan doesn’t remember what happened that terrible day when her son died. Over the years though Susan has been led to believe from the doctors that she suffered from depression after Dylan’s birth causing her to take actions without any memory of them.

Now that Susan has been released she has changed her name to Emma Cartwright to hide from her past and what she had done and try to begin her life again. However someone doesn’t seem to want her to move on from the past when she finds a picture left at her doorstep of a beautiful little boy and written on the back is the name Dylan leading Susan to believe her son is still alive. With the help of a friend and reporter Susan plans to find out just what happened that day to her little boy.

How I Lost You by Jenny Blackhurst is s psychological thriller that is mostly told from the point of view of Susan, a grieving mother that had been accused of suffocating her baby that is now out of the hospital. Some parts also flash back to other characters to tell another side of the story of just what led up to that day that Susan lost her baby boy and who was behind it.

The story of a child’s life at stake is certainly one that I found quite compelling. I found myself quickly turning the pages to find out if I should be rooting for Susan or perhaps hating her if she had killed her child. As the story unfolded I’m still not quite sure if I’m a huge fan of the ending overall but I didn’t take off too much of the rating as I was definitely interested in getting to the end.

I received an advance copy from the publisher via NetGalley.